I don't know why I'm getting teary-eyed. But it's so good that you have taken the steps to experience what you have done in the past four months! And I'm sure that you know that it is so much better than attending classes..well with what you have accomplished within the past four months - that is larger than life compared to what I'm diong now. Jason is dead. I stabbed him after I had sex with him in my sexual fantasy last night. I'm sick of fucking thinking of him. You know what, I bet you that when I EVENTUALLY have a root with him, it won't be even worth it. But you know what I figured out, I'm going to get over him - just a matter of time before I do. I need to fall in love now. (Breathing...)